I feel vigorously satisfied tonight!
Part of it is because I finally got to engage myself in writing once more : )
I always feel so de-waitforit-lightful every time I get to write something so wholesome.
It feels emotionally satisfying to me.
Although this is not my own original work,
It’s an adaptation of the play titled “The Dollhouse” (The play my group has been assigned to perform this semester)
And I wasn’t the one who adapted it from the actual play,
That would be a very murderous attempt,
My other group mates went about doing that.
I only had to edit it.
But it feels just as good to know that the final product is finally finish and ready for production!
Other study updates have been the usual routine,
As usual I need a little push to get enthusiastic about the other subjects.
I can specifically count how many times I was able to pay attention in Mass Com class.
Most of the time I’d be sleepy, drowsing off, yawning, trying so hard to keep my eyes open.
I literally stopped caring about keeping up with two of my other classes just because I know that I’ve already presented.
The assignment for one of those subjects in nearly done, just need a final group discussion and briefing on topics we need to present.
The other class assignment I can pin down that it’s only 30% done. And that’s only on my part, I don’t know about the rest of my group members.
Both of these assignments need to be submitted two weeks before the semester ends and as usual, what goes through our heads is...”oh that’s a looooong time ahead of us, chill first.”
And then, do the work last minute.
Haish, when is there ever going to be a change in my attitude?
I always need that extra pressure to push me off the edge,
I can never do something just because I want to.
Maybe it’s because I’m not into some of these subjects.
Oh and Phonetics & Phonology,
I recently found out that I wasn’t the only one who is blur in this class!
Is that a good thing or a bad thing?
For this one, I definitely need a push.
I can’t frigging get it through my head, can’t understand a single damn thing!
So while I feel absolutely unenthusiastic about all my other works,
All I can do is focus all my effort, energy and attention to the drama production.
I usually need more time to get into things, learn to know them and to love them.
I do have a passion for this.
Hope all goes well =D
*this is coming from a literature person, not linguistics person. So you do the math.*
And my romantic side has been called into duty,
Why is it so hard to explain love?
People can express it in many different ways and words which can instantly make you go “awww!”
For me,
This is as close as I can relate it to.
I think this song is what love really feels like.
It’s by Evenscence, I forgot what the song is called :p
I can’t run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I try to forget you’re all that I am,
Take me home,
I’m through fighting it.
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up,
You’re my only strength.
Without you,
I can’t go on anymore.
My only hope,
My only peace,
My only joy,
My only strength,
My only home,
My only light,
My only love.
I can’t run anymore,
I give myself to you,
I’m sorry,
I’m sorry.
In all my bitterness,
I ignored all that’s real and true,
When all I need is you.
When night falls on me,
I’ll not close my eyes,
I’m too alive,
And you’re too strong,
I can’t lie anymore,
I fall down before you,
I’m sorry,
I’m sorry.
Constantly ignoring the pain consuming me,
But this time it’s gotten too deep,
I’ll never stray again.
