Haven't been able to go online these past few weeks,
been busy with studies, family, friends & special person <3
nonetheless, though not much was typed I did get a lot written on paper,
I wish they were assignments but sadly, they were only doodles...
this one piece I wrote while I was in one of my irk classes,
forgive me because I couldn't pay attention,
part of it was because of you, another part of it was because I was scared.
so this one sort of has a sombre feeling to it,
it was inspired by Colbie Calliat's "I Never Told You"
it's still in its original raw form,
I really didn't feel like editing it much because well, I wrote it while I was in class but my heart was obviously elsewhere...
It's called "I Should Have Known."
My heart beats though it bleeds,
And it’s your fault,
Oh, it’s your fault.
I don’t know who to blame for this letdown,
But maybe,
Just maybe I’m not ready.
Oh, I’m expressively happy when I’m with you,
Yet it’s taking too much of me.
I should have known,
I should have known better,
Then to let you drag my heart away,
Was it you,
Or was it just me?
I just want us to be ‘we’
I should have known...
Your eyes smile and it takes away the pain,
I go blind,
Yeah, I go blind for you.
Crying won’t solve, life continues,
But my life can never be,
Without you
Oh, the world fades away when it’s just you and me,,
Yet it’s taken a hold of me.
I’ve fallen a victim,
Into this helplessness that I can’t help,
Knocking the breath out of me,
No, I don’t want you to stop,
But maybe I just don’t know what I want,
I should have known that I can never stop ‘we’
I’m so scared,
I’m so scared,
I’m so scared to fall
I have to give up,
Either on you or the rest,
This choice I have to make,
Can one possibly live without breathing?
now this next one,
yes this one is new,
this one is definitely happier,
happier because the one up there is the scary version,
this one is the "I'm so sure" version =)
which basically killed all my doubts and fears
this one is called "This is How I Feel Now."
It was like a metaphor,
Rainy days and lonely nights with no one to confide,
It was unexpected, this change of heart,
Felt clueless and confused, couldn’t see it from the start.
You came in a flash of light,
My head screamed, slow down this dream,
Yet my heart triumphed, I stopped listening,
All I could hear was you whispering.
And I asked you what made you come,
And you said it was everything, everything...
The first time I met you,
I had no idea that you’d be so important to me,
Push a couple of weeks,
That felt like eternity,
Nothing could explain, except,
This is how I feel now.
I was perfectly content,
I thought you were too,
I didn’t see that it was right around the corner,
That it was you.
Then you asked me what I liked about you,
And I was speechless, speechless about you...
And now I like everything about you,
Your laughter, your smile,
This change, at every end of the day,
There you are, maybe you’ve been there all the while,
I didn’t see it, I couldn’t believe it,
But this is how I feel now.
Under the tree, on the damp grass as we lay
I realized you make me happier with each passing day,
So let’s just let our hearts lead the way,
In fact, I don’t care, I like us this way.
