my mission

my mission is to complete the following tasks before the next semester starts ;)



























I shall own all of you soon! hahahahahahahaha!

heh

What is on your desktop wallpaper?
“Daddy thinks I’m good for nothing, mama says that it’s from him, manic sister thinks I’m cracking, brother says it’s in my genes. =’(“

What is your favorite zoo animal?
The tiger

What was your favorite toy as a child?
Barbie

What food do you eat too much of?
Chicken

What kind of hairstyle do you have?
Wavy curls

What was your favorite activity in gym class?
Sitting down

What is on the shirt you're wearing right now?
Nothing

What is the picture nearest to you of?
Me as a baby wearing a shirt that says “WORLD’S GREATEST DAD”

What kind of salad dressing do you like?
Caesar

Whats your least favorite food?
Veggies

What do you do on a Sunday night?
Watch movies

What color are your sheets?
Red

How big is your computer display?
Normal

What pair of shoes do you wear most often?
Sneakers

What is your favorite game?
Games that make me hungry

What is your favorite Thanksgiving food?
Turkey?

What is your favorite pizza topping?
Cheeeeese!

What time do you plan on waking up tomorrow?
No plans haha!

What is your favorite day of the year?
My bday =)

I don't know why

I don't know how I'm suppose to feel right now.

bottling it up makes me feel like breaking down.
but letting it all out will risk too much exposure,
to the deepest core of my feelings.

I don't like sharing everything that I am,
it scares the hell out of me.

How am I suppose to open up?

I don't know how.
It's hard for me to trust.

I'm holding back,
I'm afraid of baring it all because I might be left with nothing,
I'm scared of giving it all because I might lose everything.

Trust is about not being afraid to lose everything.

How can I love if I'm not willing to give it all?
How can I love if I can't trust?

*It's not that I can't, I can but I'm too afraid to.*

please proceed here

www.syafiqahamir-blablabla.tumblr.com

I AM NOT CONVERTING!

this is just the blog that is NOT for the public

warning: beware of random, inappropriate, boring, short or long, insightful, unlikely, 'to your liking or not' posts :D

today, the 19th, is a special day

one month ago today,
we sat in my car listening to your CD,
you asked me the big question and I said yes.

it was the happiest I've ever felt in ages,
& it was the best decision I've ever made.

thank you for bringing meaning to my life.
I sayang you!
you changed my whole life :DD

there are so many more things I want to say but I just don't know how to say it,
I can't express/explain/describe it.

the only way I can try to put it,
30 days = joy, laughter, happiness and everything!

I laughed a lot more these past 30 days than I used to.

so thank you very much for making me the happiest I've ever been :DD

p/s: I wish I could say/tell you more but I ran out of words

can't sleep

Okay, so I’m 20,
How do I feel about it?
Pretty blank I guess.

Well, that’s only part of it.

The other part is full of mixed up emotions,
Too overwhelming, too strong, too FAST!!!

I can feel myself slipping to this haze-like phase,
My progression dropping,
My rationality drifting away,
Until nothing else matters but...

Urgh! Have you ever felt something so strong for a person that you, yourself can’t control it?
Even if you wanted to?
Even if every aching bone in your body is screaming at you but you still find yourself helpless and unable to do a thing?!

The more I care about a person, the more I worry about them

And what am I even doing blogging at this hour?

Truth is, I can’t sleep.

I haven’t been able to really sleep these past few nights.

I’m too stressed out by these expectations that certain people expect from me.

I think too much.

This is so not how I should be posting as my official birthday post,
There’s nothing happy about it at all.

I know it’s kind of late,
And we’re already in the middle of it,
But better late than never right?
Just wanted to wish good luck to everyone for the finals!